Frustration!

I just realized how long it has been since I wrote anything on here. My last post was not long after I graduated from the University of Santa Monica with a Master's Degree in Spiritual Psychology. I had moved down to LA to be closer to my USM peeps, my tribe. Within a few months, my dad fell ill and I made the decision to pack myself up and move 12 hours north to take care of him. Almost as soon as I arrived my new Parole Officer was on me about finding a job. I had no problem getting interviews, had more than i can count, was honest about my felony from at that time more than 16 years prior, yet no one extended me an offer of employment. So, I made the decision to Omit my felony when applying to Kohls Department Store. There is always the question, "Have you ever been convicted of a felony, and if so when and where and give a brief description." I said NO. I was hired within a week to work in the Customer Service Department. Within two months I was given the added responsibilty of the Cash Office, which is counting all the money incoming and outgoing. I did my best for 14 months, kept trying to move my way up. Everytime I applied for a promotion, I was told they needed me in were I was because I was so good at it. Then in late March 2012, I got to work at 5:45 in the morning. At promptly 6am I was pulled into the Managers office and told they did a further background check finding my felony. He fired me for lying on my job application. Since then I have interviewed for jobs ranging from a Counselor position for people diagnosed with HIV/AIDS to a convenient store clerk, I made the decision to be honest about my past, showing them how much I had matured and grown. Two Weeks ago I interviewed at a local grocery store for a position in the produce department. I was open and honest leaving with hope in my chest that the interview went well. As soon as I left, the guy who interviewed me called several people into his office, including a neighbor. He proceeded to look me up on google and read the articles about me. Cutting me up, judging me for my mistakes. Of course, I wasnt offered the job, did i mention the pay was minimum wage! Now you all can go look up what ever you want, and judge what ever you want. My question to you is, When is someone redeemed, forgiven, given a second chance? How am i supposed to support myself, if I cant get a job with a decent wage? I am super frustrated at myself for crating this fiasco, for putting myself in a place where these people can get their jollies in judging me. I am scared that i wont be able to support myself!